Smršavila je 160 kilograma - ali ljudi su joj se i dalje rugali

Prije pet godina Jaqueline Adan težila je 225 kilograma. Nakon posjeta Disneylandu odlučila je promijeniti svoj život. Naime, zapela je na toboganu, pa je odlučila smršaviti. I to joj je uspjelo: promijenila je prehrambene navike i počela se baviti sportom, pa je uspjela skinuti fenomenalnih 160 kilograma! Usprkos tom nevjerojatnom uspjehu, Jaqueline se još uvijek nije dobro osjećala u svom tijelu. Sramila se viška kože koja joj je visjela na trbuhu, a osobito na nogama. 

Međutim, jedan događaj prije nekoliko tjedana zauvijek je promijenio njen život. „Na odmoru u Meksiku sam nakon jako dugo vremena prvi puta nosila kupaći kostim. Nisam željela prekriti noge“, napisala je na Instagramu. „Bila sam jako živčana kad sam skinula ručnik s kojim sam se ogrnula, te sam otišla do bazena. Opet sam se osjećala kao djevojka koja ima 225 kilograma.“ 

 

When we were on vacation in Mexico a few weeks ago, it was the first time I had worn a bathing suit in a long time, and it had been even longer since I wore a bathing suit without a cover up. I was nervous to take my cover up off and to walk into the pool or walk on the beach. I still felt like that same 500 pound girl...then it happened. A couple sitting by the pool started laughing and pointing at me and making fun of me as soon as I took my cover up off. So what did I do? I took a deep breath, smiled and walked into the pool. That was a huge moment for me. I had changed. I was not the same girl anymore. Yes I still have a lot of loose skin, I may still feel insecure at times, and yes I may still get made fun of. To be honest, yes it bothered me. But I was not going to let people like that affect me anymore! I am not going to let what other people think of me stop me from living my life. They do not know me. They do not know how I have worked my ass off to lose 350 pounds. They do not know how I am recovering from major surgeries. They have no right to sit and point and laugh at me. That's why I smiled. It does not matter what others say or if they try to doubt you or try to bring you down. What matters is how you react to it. How you feel about yourself. Loving yourself just the way you are is hard. Others might not like that. That's ok. I hope you love yourself. Love your body. I hope you keep doing you and just keep smiling! . . . . . #jacquelineadan #jacquelinesjourney #effyourbeautystandards #selfloveclub #selflove #lovemybody #lovemyshape #loveyourself #teamself #extremeweightloss #weightloss #weightlossjourney #weightlosstransformation #weightlossmotivation #beforeandafter #beforeandafterweightloss #wlstories #onaquest #bodybuildingcom #bodypositive #bodyconfidence #bodyposi #transformationfitnation #motivationmonday #mondaymotivation #fitfam #fitspo #bodytransformation #igtransformations #transformationjourney

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Odjednom se jedan par na bazenu počeo smijuljiti i pokazivati na Jaqueline. Najprije se ukočila od srama, ali odjednom je primijetila da ju je njena reakcija manje šokirala od reakcije stranaca. Jer odjednom joj je bilo SVEJEDNO. „Umjesto da otrčim nazad u hotelsku sobu, kao što sam to prije radila, nasmijala sam se i ušla u bazen. Bio je to velik trenutak za mene. Promijenila sam se. Nisam više bila djevojka kao nekad.“ 

 

I got to workout this morning!! First time in about 2 months!! I am so excited to be able to attend my Saturday workout class again!! It was a little...challenging and I am super sore right now, but I am taking it easy the resting for the rest of the day. It is funny how much your body struggles to do certain movements again, but at the same time it was pretty easy to just jump right back in. I definitely had to modify quite a bit and my arms and back were really really feeling it- but I am listening to my body, allowing it to keep healing and just enjoying working out again!!! Thanks to all my friends I saw in class today and of course @amillionwayspromo 💗💗💗I am back!! 🙌💗💗💗 . . . #jacquelineadan #jacquelinesjourney #fattofit #bodybuilding #gym #bodypositive #bodyposi #goals #extremeweightloss #gyminspiration #losingweight #weightloss #weightlosssupport #weightlosscommunity #beforeandafter #beforeandafterweightloss #weightlosstransformation #weightlossbeforeandafter #bootcamp #onaquest #fit #fitspo #obesetobeast #perfectlyimperfect #fitfam #fitspiration #fitness #workoutmotivation #effyourbeautystandards

A post shared by Jacqueline⬇️300lbDiet&Exercise (@jacquelineadan44) on Sep 2, 2017 at 4:11pm PDT

Sada želi svoju priču podijeliti s drugima – kako bi ih ohrabrila. Zbog toga je postala svoju fotografiju u kupaćem kostimu – što prije nikad ne bi napravila. Uz to je napisala: „Više neću dopustiti drugim ljudima da određuju kako ću se osjećati. Više neću dopustiti da to što drugi misle o meni određuje kako ću živjeti svoj život. Oni me ne poznaju. Ne znaju koliko sam naporno radila da toliko smršavim. Nemaju pravo sjediti tamo i smijati mi se. Zbog toga se ja smijem njima.“ 

 

For some reason right now, I am having a hard time with my body image, my weight and my eating patterns. Maintaining for me has been HARD, especially when I am recovering from surgery. I am finding it very challenging to find a balance in my lifestyle and not focusing on losing weight, but at the same time, not gaining weight either. But what I do know is that I will not become a victim to my choices, my food addiction or allow myself to go anywhere near my old ways. I am in complete control of my choices and decisions and I need to remember that! I have lost 350 pounds by being stronger than my addiction. By wanting to change bad enough and working my butt off. I know I will be able to find a balance and just like with weight loss, I will conquer this whole maintenance thing too! I know that no matter what you are going through or how much you feel you can't do it, you can do it, we can do it together! This is called a journey for a reason. Sometimes our journey can be hard, but that does not mean we can give up and not try! Today is a new day! Let's make the best choices we can and take back our control!! . . . . . #jacquelineadan #jacquelinesjourney #bodyposi #bodypositive #bodyconfidence #bodybuildingcom #poparmy #blogilates #perfectlyimperfect #progressnotperfection #motivation #motivationmonday #mondaymotivation #weightloss #warrior #weightlossjourney #weightlosssupport #weightlosscommunity #fattofit #transformationfitnation #transformfitspocommunity #fit #fitspo #effyourbeautystandards #wlstories #iwill #onaquest #onedayatatime #transformation #selflove

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